I'm at a point in life where I'm either inspired "give all" or "give up". I was read a book by the ultimately BORING Schneidman, that spoke on the different forms of suicide contemplation. Three examples that stuck with me were; cessation, continuation, and I think interuptive. Cessation was a result of events that happen on and off that cause one to seek relief through suicide, continuation is when a constant series of thoughts take place, and "interuptive" is of course when one event is viewed to be catastrophically unchangeable and instantly the only sense of escape or refugee is in the form of suicide. I didn't mention that for any personal suggestions, or aspects of my own, but it's relevant in a sense that mankind has come to such a predicament that the most common solution, lately, has been mass destruction. Some people may say it's a war between Heaven and Hell, some say an alien invasion of sorts, some even say the entire galaxy is going to turn against the planet in a barrage of comets, asteroids, and imploding stars that turn to black holes in space. Honestly, I think it's all a HUGE defense-mechanism. Everybody wants everything to up and disappear, with no repercussions toward them, personally. By the looks of it, the world has been ending for the last 2011 years, after Christ... Seriously? 2011 years, and God, the aliens, and the Milky Way STILL haven't made their move yet? Haven't you noticed that every decade there's been an apocalyptic scare that sweeps the nation off its feet, then nothing happens? Now, 2012 is an honest enough number to speak for its own accuracy, because number one, it's written down in an old book, as if people didn't lie before the "manifest destiny" of America. No. 2, maybe it's because the number doesn't look so cliche and predictable, and people are starting to accept that some truths aren't sensationally sound. Me? I'm not buyin' it. The world has been in worst shape. No ones traveling continent to continent killing millions, and locking them away in concentration camps, nobody's slaying villages looking for Dead Sea Scrolls. I think people just don't want to see themselves as evil, so they come up with ALL of these loop holes to say, " The Devil made me do it.". Look, I do bad things, all the time. I apologize more than niggas that love playing the board game, Sorry. What is with people sending drug lords, rapists, murderers, and etc to "better places"? Everything's good, except this pseudo-concept of wrong, known as Satan. Everything is HIS fault, or the governments fault, or the medias fault. Everyone's fault except the people doing it, or allowing it to happen. WE'RE ALL EVIL. There is no escape from YOUR dirty deeds. If you smoke, you will initially come across lung cancer, if you have unprotected sex, with a fully fertile individual, you will have a child out of wed-lock who WILL be raised in a single-parent home, if one of you decides to bounce. If you jump, you gone fall. Stop asking God to beset the dumb shit you decide to delude the Earth with. I don't think God is going to watch us destroy his amazingly, amazing system of life, then say, "No hard feelings, I'll make you anew. *giggles*." Somewhere along life, a person needs to clean their own damn room, and this hoarding mentality we carry is outrageous. We've got everything wrong with ever where. People are starting to believe that humans are innocent in all of their endeavors, and miraculously, something else is responsible for the execution of it. Actually, people have stopped denying it, and have become submissive to the comfort of falsehood. I know people who will stab a newborn baby, then say, "It ain't mine." , or "They can make another." These people will wake up the next morning and STILL think that reading a BOOK will suffice for the unstarted life they took. Where are the people who know that they have to be their own hero, their own savior, and fix this SHIT? Are we really gonna watch it all fall, and pretend the sky won't fall down on us all? All and all, what's goin' on?
